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It's a start!

This year when the backpacks went on clearance I wanted to buy one for each of the children to put their 72 hour emergency kits in.  Well, good old Walmart had them for $3 each.  Not the cutest but hey they were just what I was looking for!

I have stuffed each bag with the following so far:

* 3 puddings

* 2 pouches of fruit snacks

* 1 mini bubbles

* 1 bottle of instant breakfast

* 6 antibacterial wipes

* 3 6 packs of peanut butter crackers

* toothbrush

* travel sized kleenex

* travel sized hand sanitizer

* shampoo/conditioner (1 small bottle for all 4 kids)

* chicken salad with crackers

* 1 small box of raisins

* 2 cups of oranges

* 1 cup of beef a roni 

* 1 small box of goldfish

* 3 lemonade flavor packs

* 1 cup of applesauce

* 1 box of animal crackers

* 1 bag of doritos

* 5 disposable washcloths 

* 10 pouches of emergency water

* toothpaste (1 small tube for all 4 kids)

* 3 diapers and 40 wipes (Saige)

* 12 diapers and 40 wipes (Gage)

So I know that I need to add a couple of more things like pop tarts, oatmeal, utensils, cups, clothes and more food.  But I am so excited to get started on this project!  Now maybe I should put one together for Lonnie and I! :]

Been working...

and I want one of these for Christmas!  Wouldn't that be awesome!

Celebrating Home

I am hosting a Celebrating Home decoration class this Thursday evening at my home at 7:00. Want to come??  Please do!  Let me know if you need directions!  Please do not feel obligated to buy anything.  Just come socialize!  

So confused as to where to even begin...

So yes it is Sunday and yes I should be in church.  Let's just say that they are practicing for the Primary Program and there is no way on earth that Mason can handle it.  It was so hard to just sit in the congregation while all of the other children were being directed to their seats and knowing that there was not going to be a seat for my son.  I know that it is not fair to everyone else to have him even attempt it.  But as a parent I already feel the rejection that he is getting. Please don't think that I am speaking badly of anyone in Primary.  They are all fantastic and work very hard to accomidate Mason and his needs.  This is just another "real life" situation that we knew was coming but perhaps not emotionally ready for.  I love this little child so much and I just want him to be able to function normally and for it to not have to be such a struggle for him.  We are trying just about everything from numerous therapists to various doctors. Everyone's answer has to do with the fact that he was a drug baby and what else should I expect.  I am not going to take this for an answer.  Yes he was a drug baby.  Yes there is a chemical inbalance in his brain.  Yes I am ready to medicate (or at least try).  Yes I am scared. Yes I wish so badly that I could just make it all better.  Yes I am tired of having to make a billion meals a day just so he will eat.  Yes I feel hopeless and all alone.  Yes I am tired of hearing how I just need to learn to deal with it.  Yes I am so sick of all of the looks that I get all of the time.  I could just go on and on.  Bottom line is I need to get this kid some help soon.  I have gotten numerous referrals to numerous specialists that somehow we never get to see because of one thing or another.  I am tired of the dead ends.  Something has to give and I need a good doctor who know what the heck they are doing.  A doctor that will not treat me as though I am making this stuff up.  I will run a freakin' video camera if I need to.  Okay enough! It is Sunday and I should not be feeling like this.  If any of you that read this have any input as to where I could possibly go that may be able to help please let me know.  I have to get this figured out and I will be spending a great deal of time in doing so I just know it.  I have to do this.  For him.  For me. For our family.  I love my son just as much as any other mother or parent out there does and I am not going to give up!

Agua Fria Football Game

Last Friday night I had the opportunity to fill in for a fellow photographer.  It was so fun trying to capture this game.  Head on over to her website here to check out my work.  You may have to enter an e-mail address and feel free to use mine  reflectivephoto@yahoo.com.  Thanks for looking!

Happy {belated} Birthday Michelle!

So this post is one day late.  Oh well.  Such is life.  Yesterday was Michelle's 5th birthday!  How on earth do we have a 5 year old?  The time has flown by and I cannot believe how big she is getting. She is growing so fast but still maintains to be such a sweet and amazing little girl!

Since this post is about Michelle I have to share a great story...more for documentation purposes. A couple of days ago Michelle went with me to the grocery store during nap time.  As soon as we walked in there was this inflated pumpkin that had a ghost coming in and out of it.  She looks at it and says, "Look mom.  It's the Holy Ghost!"  She was so stinkin' cute!  After trying not to crack up completely and making too much of a scene I told her that that is not the Holy Ghost but a Halloween ghost.  So as I'm checking things out on the aisle I here..."Hey Holy Ghost.  How's it going today?"  Man I love this little miracle!