A Sad (in a good way) / Memorable Day

Today is Gage's 2nd birthday! I cannot believe it. Where on earth has the time gone? I cannot say what a surprise this child was and how extremely grateful I am for this little miracle. I remember when we got the phone call...Lonnie and I knew that the birth mom was pregnant again (not like that was anything new) and we had already decided that if we were asked that there was no way we would be able to handle another one. Well, when we were getting ready one day CPS called and said that mom had a little boy and they needed to know that day whether we wanted him. Oh no. Lonnie gave me a look that I don't think I've ever seen before. I think he was a little bit disappointed in CPS for even calling. Anyhow we went on with our day/morning and Lonnie looks over and says if I can name him we will take him! What?!! So that was it. It was a done deal. Not really. We prayed really fast and felt very strongly that we needed to take this child. Seriously? How on earth was I going to do this. I already had three little ones, my sister was getting ready to leave on her mission and Lonnie would soon be starting the Police Academy. Heavenly Father knows everything. Gage has been the best baby ever and so content! He also sent my parents to help out soo much during those trying times.

I remember driving with my sister to go down to the hospital to pick him up when he was just 3 days old. (sorry, fighting back tears now). She stayed in the care with the other kiddos and I went in. I told them who I was and who I was there for. It was so weird. They said wash your hands mom and you can hold your baby. When I first saw him I thought no way! How precious and he is all mine. No visitations, no "bonding" with the birth mom. HE IS MINE! He was so hairy and tiny, but oh so perfect! When I got him to the car my sister thought that he looked like a little old man (small eyes, hairy, and wrinkly). Mason just looked at him and knew that that was his brother. It was a great confirmation that we had made the right choice.

Now, 2 extremely quick years later and I am still so in love with this little guy. How could you not be? From his gorgeous curly locks, to his deep old man voice, to his sweet personality and so much more. I am thankful to be the mother of this amazing little one and I cannot wait to see what the future has for this little guy! I love you so much Gage Anthony. Happy Birthday!!